Hi Craig - I have follow up questions, if I may.
You said "He’s enjoying his life there, and he’s busy doing things, so he doesn’t stick around you all the time."
What is he busy doing?
A few things have happened since I last wrote. I have begun talking more to him in the past few days. Talking and sending him my love and hoping that he gets it. I ask questions, too. Most recently I wondered about his true feelings for me. Lo and behold, I had another dream! In this dream, he sent me a message on Facebook telling me "I'm sorry if I didn't show you how much I cared when I was with you. I love thee and always will." When I awoke from the dream I had James Taylor's song "How Sweet It Is (to be loved by you)" playing in my head VERY loudly!
I was reading online today and learned that one's personality doesn't change when crossing over. (Do you agree with that?) It made perfect sense about the email - he was unable to say a lot, and used to send me emails about things that were difficult for him to speak.
The JT song was funny to me, too. My SO used to tease me - JT is my favorite musician. He used to ask how I could stand to listen to the music, and when he got an mp3 player for our son, he told me he would fill it with music so there would be more on it than Sam Cooke and James Taylor.
I received his death certificate in the mail today. It was a jarring reminder of my reality. I was saddened, but was unable to cry for him. (I thought that was interesting) The death certificate shows that he died from the accident and inhalation of smoke, AND that he died within minutes of the accident. The feeling that I had - the message from him about how it felt when he crossed over is consistent with the information on the certificate. It was like a validation of my beliefs.
Finally, regarding my fear of death (and dying), you wrote "if you knock at the door, it will open for you. If you seek to learn about the afterlife, you’ll find yourself learning more and more, and you’ll learn to have no fear . . . absolutely no fear . . . of death."
Craig, I am knocking. What should I do to learn about the afterlife? What books should I read? Where can I learn more? I want to gain a full understanding of the spiritual world. I believe I have a guardian spirit who sometimes communicates deaths to me. I have had premonitions of deaths - the strongest was a dream I had about my uncle dying. I saw him in the casket, experienced his funeral in a very vivid, real-feeling dream. I woke up and told my Mom and Gramma that we needed to call my uncle and explained about the dream. Ten days later, he died. No one knew he had cancer - he didn't tell anyone, not his wife, not his sister (my Grammma).
Two weeks prior to my SO's death, I spoke to him about life insurance. I asked him questions about his life that I had never asked. On 12/30 I received the quote for the life insurance and we were going to sign the papers right after the new year. I believe there were agents at work putting those thoughts in my mind. I even thought "What would I do if he died?" I can't believe those thoughts were a mere coincidence.
Can I learn to successfully channel or invite communications from the spirit world?
I feel a little crazy, but I also feel liberated from something. It's hard to describe.
I look forward to hearing from you again.
Thanks,
Nathalie
